Bismillaah, tawakkaltu ‛alal-laah, wa laa ḥawla wa laa quwwata illaa billaah

I ran back up the stairs I had just descended.

Barely a few steps away from the hotel is when it hit me. My stomach churning. Still unaccustomed to the natural food.

As I ran up the stairs, two steps at a time I saw Abdi – a blur as I rushed passed him.

He didn’t see me.

I rejoiced at my temporary moment of ninja like speed.

***

Abdi had chided me earlier as I was taking my lunch up to my room. I could barely hold a conversation with the intoxicating smell of spiced lamb coming from my white plastic bag in hand and wafting through the air.

We ran into each other near the lobby, his face still wet from wuddu.  The front of his hair glistening from recently being washed and small water droplets visible on top of his short cut black hair. As I shook his wet hand, my suspicions of his purification was confirmed.

“Asc walaal” he said.

“Wcs” I replied.

“Maxaa salaat Jimca uu tukan waysi?” he asked with the concerned look of an older brother. My intention to not pray apparent.

“Inshallah” I quickly said before continuing my walk up the stairs. With each step of getting closer to the door, my mouth watering a little more in anticipation.

He muttered what was probably a prayer to help me see the better path.

***

I ran up three more flights of stairs, no longer seeking the path of a stealthy ninja – my stomach continuing its threat. When I reached the door to my room, rushed and shaky hands dropped the keys. I groaned not appreciating the effort it’ll take to pick them up. Once the herculean task was done and my keys were back in hand, I quickly entered my room.

After fifteen minutes of being in the washroom, I heard the hotel room door open – a muffled creek emanating briefly.

Did I lock the door behind me? I wondered.

My heart raced as I slightly panicked with the image of who might be coming entered my mind. Encountering the cute cleaning girl like this would definitely not help my plans to ask her for shah and sweets later this week.

The door made a silent click as it was closed. I heard the footsteps approaching the bathroom door. My throat becoming dry as I prepare myself to yell I was in here and accept my fate.

But the sounds of shuffling feet passed by and stopped near where the dresser was.

“Mahubtaa inuusan soo noqonaynin?” came a males voice that sounded familiar.

“Ha, mardow baan arkay isaago baxay.” Came Abdi’s voice.

I remained silent, frozen as I wondered why they were in here. Maybe Abdi and the other guy are doing some quick repairs, I thought.

I voiced my desire for a functioning fan to combat the sometimes suffocating heat after my first night arriving here.

“Laabo cusub baan heley.” Said the first man.

“Bacda ku rid.” Abdi responded.

“Sulwaalkan ku dar.” He followed.

“Qolkan maaxa uu doratay?” Ask the other man.

“Qof oo Jimca tukaanin, waa iska kaafir.” Abdi said with indifference in his voice.

Still in shock at what was happening. I finally recognized the second voice.

It was Yaasin! I exasperated in my mind as the realization dawned on me. He was another employee at the front desk. He towered over Abdi when I saw them together when I was registering into the hotel. His skin was considerably lighter than Abdi’s, but the tanning of the sun’s effects visible. Unlike Abdi, as I later found out, Yaasin chewed qhat as was evident by his heavily yellow stained teeth.

I stayed quite as I hear a few more things being put into the bag.

Five minutes after a careful ransacking of what was probably all my clothes in the dresser, Abdi and Yaseen were leaving as quietly as they came. I briefly panicked thinking they might come into the bathroom and try their luck in here. But they passed by, unlocked the hotel room door, and started walking through. Yaasin leaving first and Abdi following behind quietly reciting a prayer.

For Shaytan eats with his left hand and drinks with his left hand

I was rushing through the dense and packed streets of Hargeisa’s largest suuq. There’s still a couple of hours until noon, but the sun could not be bothered to stick to schedule. My palms were having a hard time holding onto the shopping bags. The sweat and plastic completing a frictionless dance as I constantly adjusted. The battle was finally lost as one of the bags slips through my last finger and hits the floor.

As I turned to pick up my bag, I saw the man behind me almost trip as he tried to avoid it.

“Warya qashinkaaga naga qaad!” he yelled angrily.

I guess the heat’s getting to everyone. I tried to apologize, but he had already walked away mumbling under his breath.

Luckily the bag didn’t break open. I am not sure my mom would appreciate a muddied dirac. I bent over and picked it up with my right hand and secured it tightly along with the others.

After a few more blocks of stifling crowd, annoyed looks, and drenched armpits I saw Ibrahim. He smiled at me as he walked towards me. Not a sign of sweat on his blue t-shirt. I looked lower and saw what else he was wearing.

“What’s with the old man macawiis” I said, taking a slight dig.

“Gotta keep cool everwhere.” He replied with a heavy English accent. A wink and a mischievous smile following right after.

Pleased to see him, I reached out with my free left hand. He reeled back, a look of disgust replacing his sly smile.

“Ma walaantahay!” he said, genuinely insulted at my gesture.

“Gacanta aa xaarka iska daqdhid baa isiinaysa?”

I momentarily forgot where I was. The smallest habits are hardest to break I suppose.

After shifting the bags to my left hand and put out my hand again, the gesture was returned.


“Dhaqanka iyo nadaafadda weli maa baraan” he followed with eyebrows drawn down.

I smirked with a slight guilt. I probably look like a child that’s been scolded.

“fa-innal shaytan yakulu bishimaalihi wayashribu bishimaalihi” he recited from memory, his mouth and tongue moving with ease from countless repetitions

Somalis being largely a Muslim people adhere to it. They might have even added greater restrictions to this hadith. But perhaps this is also the reason why the transmission of some diseases are less pronounced in Somali dominated areas. Since everyone knows which hand the ‘business’ is done with, the other is used.

“Inaadeer, bal aan raadsano cabitan” Ibrahim said with an unusual level of chipper. Perhaps feeling guilty for admonishing me, he offered to buy tea.

As we walked to a favourite tea shop nearby, Ibrahim waved at someone he recognized. For some reason, it feels like you can’t walk two blocks in Hargeisa without running into someone you know.

The man was dressed a bit more professional than either one of us. His white shirt tucked into his beige khakis. A red skinny tie was carefully done and contrasted his white shirt.

Maybe he’s taking a break from work I thought.

He was momentarily blocked by the crowd as he walked towards us.  When he was about ten meters from us, he passed by the last person. His eyes darting to me quickly while half his right hand was inside his face. Picking at whatever was lodged in there.

“Walaal, baryahan xaage aa kuluntai?” He said, as he extended his arm for the proper greeting.

Ibrahim took it happily.

“Islaanti.” He said.

Both started laughing. Obviously an inside joke which I’ll hear about over tea.

His nose free from obstruction, he completed his greeting and put out his right arm to me.

….the change you want to see in the world

“That’s what’s wrong with your generation, Abdirahman.”  Adeer said.

“You’ve become globalists and have forgotten your dhakan”

I wonder if it’s ironic he’s speaking to me mainly in English? But we both knew why. Being able to speak English is a high indicator of status in this area.

I got comfortable for my lesson, having similar discussions with other Adeers. The waiter brings our drinks. A perfect time. Perhaps a small pity from Eebe.

He turned fully towards me now. We were sitting on the patio at a café that’s frequented by diaspora. A conversation Swedish over there, courting in German there. And what sounds like Dutch over here.

The sun was finally giving way after a long day, and the cool breeze of the evening was now a welcome relief.

“You don’t even know the troubles that inflicts your own people.” He continued. “You’d just as likely side with Ethiopia, one of our oldest rivals. The ones who would keep us divided and docile.”

I tried to interject, offer some debate; but I was quickly brushed aside. My time in Canada apparently stripped me of knowledge regarding my ancestral home and the complex geopolitical situation ailing our people.

“Do you know how much khat we buy from them? We give them three million dollars a day! A DAY! US DOLLARS! His voice raised with passion and indignation at the prospect of having Ethiopia be our betters and have the ability to dominate us.

“What a waste.” he trailed off as he shook his head.

He took a couple of sips from his tea, smacking his lips each time.

A quick relief from his tirade and reenergize.

I did the same, no longer completely shocked at the incredibly sweet concoction. Perhaps I’ve gotten used to the astronomical sugar to tea ratio of this broadly loved drink.

A friend once joked that making this level of sugar illegal would half the serious condition that’s plagued us.

He began again, the tea working its magic.

“Do you know how much they interfere in our internal affairs! Haa dheh.”

A statement I was simply meant to acknowledge.

“Haye” I meekly said, hoping that was the proper response.

“Giving financial support to one group. Providing intel to another. Quelling the growing influence of the more powerful.”

“Always sowing discord. Constantly Destabilizing. With the idiots falling for it and fighting each other e-v-e-r-y t-i-m-e.” tapping the table with his index finger to each syllable.

“And where is your beloved UN in all this? World governments that are meant to help us? Halkee?”

Another false question.

“Anaa kuu shegayo.”

“They give us food when it rains.”

“Anything they teach and give is to dull our self-sufficiency….”

As he was continuing, a young man in his mid-twenties came to our table. His striped blue shirt neatly tucked under his belt. Crisped, creased, black pants without the tell-tale red sign of someone who walks. Only his shoes giving away his still lowly status of not using a car.

How does he manage to keep all that dust from him? I wondered.

“Adheer, waakan wixi aad rabtay.”

Placing the familiar bundled green plant on the table. His gift acknowledged with a nod.

He looked at me. The cultural convention of acknowledgement in play.

“Sidee aad tahay” putting out his hand for me to shake.

“Waan fiicanaha” I responded as I took his hand.

With a slight smirk, he turned back towards Adheer. My subterfuge apparently ineffective.

“Mawduuci aan ka wada hadalnay, side ayay u socotaa?” Adeer was asked.

“WFP waxaad bilaabeysa Isnintan.”

…”Laakin haan iloobin cidda ku keenay. Ma fahmeysaa? The young man was now asked.

He nodded knowing what that meant.

Adheer took a large sip of his tea and stowed the bundle for later enjoyment.

Sohn

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Dominic-Simpson-Rave

As I walked in, I could hear the incomprehensible noise; just a cacophony of disharmony. It made absolutely no sense to my ears. A constant attack of shrills and screams. Who in their right mind would willingly listen to this? I thought it more akin to the psychological torture conducted on prisoners.

Then I saw the dancing, again this seemed wrong to me. My eyes were bewildered when they could glean no pattern, no synchronicity. All they saw were random motions failing to mimic the intended purpose.

The first thing I noticed was that they weren’t all dancing to the same tempo. I admit, the music made no sense to me but I would imagine that if they were all fans there’d be at least some semblance of kinship in their movements. One gentleman in a corner was swaying back and forth as if he was being awashed by the gentlest of melodies and moved by its current. But the young lady next to him, who I would guess to be his significant, appeared to be in the arms of passion and enthralled by its possession with her limbs flailing uncontrollably. As my eyes devoured this scene of people purportedly dancing to the same music yet sharing no discernible rhythm, I caught a glimpse of my friend- the one who had invited me to such confusion.

She was standing at the top bar looking down at this mockery of music and dancing. When she saw me gazing up she gestured me to join her. As I approached I could tell she was enjoying herself, though, to my relief, not dancing. But when I stood next to her, her demeanor changed and a slight concern began to etch on her face– I suppose she saw my discomfort and confusion to where she had invited me.

“You’re only confused because you missed the beginning.” she said.

I tried to interject with my valid insights, but she simply put up her hand and firmly said “close your eyes”

After a minute of staring at each other, I relented and closed my eyes.

“Forget the madness and the incoherence. Forget everything else and listen for the simplest one. It’s the most consistent rhythm”

She paused, giving me the opportunity to find it.

I tried to look for something, anything, in this madness that could be described as ‘simple’. When I concluded to myself it to be an impossible feat, my friend interjected “don’t look too hard for it, let it come to you”

Almost, instantly I found it.

I practically felt it through my entire body, slow and almost pulsating. I was overcome by an irresistible urge gently enticing me to sway along.

As if sensing my achievement, she continued “Good. Now try holding on to it while you look for more. But each time you find another, add it to your sense of the others without losing the previous discoveries…..if you’re able” she added.

She knows me too well, practically goading me with that last bit.

“Do you understand?”  She asked.

I nodded.

“Ok, with your eyes still closed, find as many as you can.”

I initially began searching half-heartedly, but recalling her challenge I sought more earnestly.  Eventually, I found fourteen others, each more difficult to find than the last. There were a few times through my search that I became lost, but I always followed what she had told me and began anew. The chase was exhilarating. I could never guess what I would discover next; from fast to slow, sweet to sour. Sometimes producing what felt like real shocks other times sedately calming. But what was most amazing was how the addition always complemented the complexity, never distracting from the ephemeral completeness of the arrangement. The assured surprise was intoxicating.

After I had sensed the fourteenth one, my friend continued giving her instructions as if there was no pause.

“…now, while holding to all fourteen…..”

How did she know I found fourteen?

“…open your eyes and look down.”

I don’t know how long my search took, but when I looked down it was a completely different atmosphere. It was as if I was transported to another location. What were once absurd movements now had a rhythm and harmony. I looked at the corner for the couple I had noticed earlier; their movements finally clear to me, each sensing and dancing to a different vibration.  After a few more moments of watching, I began to distinguish what an individual could sense. Each person was incorporating the different rhythms into their movements, almost as if unable to ignore what they sensed — from those following the first to those few following all fourteen.  There were several others whose movements eluded me, which I can only surmise meant they were sensing something beyond the fourteen I could.

Pulling myself away from this mesmerizing scene, I looked over to my friend and asked her why she wasn’t dancing.

“Oh, I am just listening to the lyrics.”

Mystified, I turned to look at her questioningly. And she simply smiled.